I know that a hot flash is coming as soon as my heartbeat picks up it’s pace. I try to out-run it by quickly rolling up my sleeves. I look for any object that can be turned into a fan. Then, I try to slow my breathing down. I hate hot flashes. I often wonder […]
Meet Lucy. She loves our morning walk. She stares at me like she is watching a clock. She knows the routine. We have coffee, eat breakfast, clean the kitchen, make the bed and then we go on our 1.7 mile walk. Once she sees my tennis shoes, she goes nuts. She dances sideways and tries […]
Do you ever hear someone speak about something ordinary that you’ve heard a million times, except this time it is as if you’ve heard it completely anew and understand it in a way that you never had before? I think these are ‘God moments’ where I imagine that he’s saying the words loud and slow, […]
I watched a documentary called “All the Queens Horses” about a lady named Rita Crundwell who was a city comptroller in the small town of Dixon Illinois. Rita lived alone and kept to herself. No one thought too much about it because she had a large horse farm and she stayed busy caring for and showing […]
One of the best things about attending a twelve-step meeting is that you can talk about anything without fear or judgment. You will not have anyone wag a finger in your face and say, “Shame on you.” In fact, most of the time when I share, understanding heads will nod an affirmation of ‘I’ve been […]
Killing mosquitos reminds me of my program of recovery. You see mosquitos are pests. They carry disease and make me itch. It seems that it would be a good thing to kill them. But, then we started to notice that when we spray to kill these pests, we are also taking out large […]
Yesterday, I did a really dumb thing. I took my contacts out to rest my eyes and could not find my saline solution. Hoping that my daughter had left some of her solution behind, I ran to the upstairs bathroom. There, I found a small bottle that looked a lot like my saline […]
I walk my dogs almost every morning. I take a shorter loop than I’d like, but the standard poodle overheats quickly, so I don’t go much further than a mile. Most days, I will bring them home and wait till the end of the day and go on a longer walk for me. I wait […]
I remember the early days of my son’s addiction. I felt paralyzed. I sat with this new information alone. Would I be able to tell anyone? What would they think of him? What would they think of me? I looked around with new eyes. I saw families–they all seemed so normal compared to how I […]
I am not alone when I mention that I love the show “This is Us.” There are too many good qualities to list. But, my favorite thing is that they scoot around in time, giving us insight into the depth of each character. It satisfies a curiosity that I have always held about how our […]